Till I turn blue

This debut poetry collection is not only about coming of age in our time and the struggles that accompany it. This poetry questions you and this time. It gives you a deep insight into the obsessive feelings of someone who fell for the idea of someone. These words visualize the void our mind can create. They show you the absurdity of life.


I was desperate and possessed,
for four years you were my only request.
But my whole life I never aced your test.
My whole life I had to question,
what is the difference between love and obsession?
But you never answered.
I fell deep into the void.
There I only imagined your voice.
I realised the absurdity of life,
with sixteen I felt the price.
On your command I would kneel,
but that was never to your appeal.
I felt things I should never feel.
It felt like drowning.
I saw my hands turning blue,
saw my vision turning blurry too.
Breathing and thinking became hard.
Then I saw his spark.

All I saw was you
and you answered my question.
I finally felt passion.
To my love,
there is nothing I wouldn´t do for you,
because I am still made out of obsession.
Now you are my greatest possession.

I will write about you,
till I turn blue.